I'm getting old.

I feel as I increase in age, my tolerance and ability to care decreases at an alarming rate. When I was a lot younger, everything meant something to me, but now, all I care about is making sure my dog didn't destroy my apartment. Plus, I look younger than I am and I am no good at judging other peoples' ages. The undergrads at school think I'm one of them, and their mouths just drop when I say I'm 25. It's kind of funny, actually. Well, that, and the fact that they all look like they jumped into a pile of really ugly clothes and came out wearing ALL of it.

Music is starting to bore me. I am basically listening to the same garbage I listened to when I was 14. I mean, I like it, but unlike myself, music doesn't seem to be evolving much. Aside from a few poignant bands over the last handful of years, I haven't heard anything new that has particularly piqued my interest or offered me something refreshing. I'm not saying I want some spaced out shit rock or anything, I just want people to go back in history, find what worked for other bands, and then capitalize on that shit. I mean, come on. I can think of maybe 3+ bands right now that have figured it out (Black Lips, Regulations, Demon's Claws), but whatever. I'm just finding something new to complain about. Today: music, ten years: offspring? who the fuck knows and/or cares? I don't.

As it may be known, my main squeeze is living in LA right now. Yep, the faggot left me in Chicago for Hollywood. Are you kidding me? I mean, I understand he's doing it for "school", but he refused to move there with me, so now I'm here. I think I am trying so hard to make this long distance thing work because a) I don't have time or patience to date other people and b) I'm getting older and don't want to have to keep going through the same bullshit. Oh, and I love him. I mean, this sucks a lot and maybe if I had a little more value than his buddy and an unpaid internship at earche or metalblade records, he'd be here with me and I wouldn't be sounding off to a fucking computer. So I'm done doing that. I'm going to hop on my ped and go for a ride. It's a beautiful fall day and I'm not getting any younger.